When my old posts resurface I cringe so hard.
You are not your past. Never allow a people to take you back to a place you so long ago bid farewell to.
Nu’aym b. ‘Abdillah, the scribe of the righteous Caliph ‘Umar b. ‘Abd Al-’Azîz – Allah have mercy on him, narrates that ‘Umar b. ‘Abd Al-’Azîz said:
The fear of showing off and vying with others prevents me from saying much of what could be said.
Master your thoughts.
Some of us have not yet lived because we fear the pains of life; emotions, feelings, experiences. But they are what teach us how to be human. They are what teach us how to live, how to be.
The reminders only benefit when you benefit first and foremost before narrating it to others.
Perhaps you can stop the cycle of sinning when you remind yourself of how you feel afterwards and why you no longer want to feel that way. Perhaps by preventing your nafs of doing what ‘feels good’ at the moment, you can then try to be good in all moments. & maybe what it takes is for you to try to be better and try to be stronger even when it is difficult. Keep in mind that change is not easy. Improving the state you’re in is not easy, it was never meant to be; but it will be worth it.
Don’t let failure prevent you from trying again and again to do better and to be better. Don’t allow failure to bring you back to a place you never want to go to again, to feelings you never want to feel again, to insinuations you never want to hear again. With the rising of the sun each day, you have an opportunity to do good, to be good.
& keep in mind that, ‘…Allah will not change the condition of a people until they first change what is in themselves.’* So strive to overcome the difficult beginning to enjoy an everlasting good.
May Allaah ta’aala enable each and everyone of us to be the best we can be and to constantly turn to him in times of ease and hardship. May Allaah strengthen our Eemaan and increase us in sabr with ourselves and with others. May Allaah grant us and envelope us in His Mercy for it is nothing but that, which will enter us into His Heavens and save us from His punishment.
*Suratul Ra’ad , verse 11. For an explanation of this Ayah and the meaning behind first changing what is within yourself, click here and here.
There’s nothing better than old Spider-Man cartoons dubbed in Arabic.